My son started his day care this week - he is 34 months and today is his second day and I am contemplating for the 7568th time why I am working and not quitting.
I am sure these are some of the worst times and decisions parents have to make - I still cant think of a harder decision I have had to take in my life than to decide to go back to work. I have been working for the past 2 years. These times have been great with my son quickly settling down with a friend who runs ahome daycare and then with his grandparents.
now they are going back to india and my son also in his preschool years, we want him to be in a more disciplined setting.
I am worried to death about his new daycare - I had good reviews about this day care from a friend, its just my lil one's crying when I drop him off that has me unable to concentrate at work.
I AM STILL CONTEMPLATING ABOUT GOING TO WORK.
I read all these mommy blogs and stay at home moms and I am JEALOUS!!!
My kid is so happy with me - should I stay home?
Will this improve in a week's time or I will still feel bad???
How I wish my story was similar to this one 55 word fiction called Trust: http://jottingsnmusings.wordpress.com/2009/04/22/55-fiction/
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Keep quiet
I started this blog as a means to pour out my feelings without worrying about my own image because of my anonymous identity.
turns out my life is not as miserable - iam feeling much better these days, not that anything around me has changed dramatically, just that what I take to heart has changed - i understand I still have a long way to go, but nevertheless, this could be a good start.
A wise well-wisher once advised me philosophically about life when I told her about my family problems - she told me there is much more and all this will seem like a joke one day - it is already happening - it is funny grown up people can turn tables so easily and act like kids.
I just realised nothing is going to be lost by keeping quiet - no words spoken out of anger that were not meant, nothing said so someone gets hurt intentionally or unintentionally, leave the other person in dark about what you think, never feel bad yourself about having said something bad.
WOW - so many merits, but why it is so hard to shut up when one really needs to....
turns out my life is not as miserable - iam feeling much better these days, not that anything around me has changed dramatically, just that what I take to heart has changed - i understand I still have a long way to go, but nevertheless, this could be a good start.
A wise well-wisher once advised me philosophically about life when I told her about my family problems - she told me there is much more and all this will seem like a joke one day - it is already happening - it is funny grown up people can turn tables so easily and act like kids.
I just realised nothing is going to be lost by keeping quiet - no words spoken out of anger that were not meant, nothing said so someone gets hurt intentionally or unintentionally, leave the other person in dark about what you think, never feel bad yourself about having said something bad.
WOW - so many merits, but why it is so hard to shut up when one really needs to....
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